finally...i resurface....

After a week of deactivating....now i activated my fb back...coz i think, now i might be able to function normally....a whole week i've been too depressed....some people make rumors about me and i'm too angry that i could spend hours and days cursing non stop in the FB due to my addiction to make FB as my public diary...knowing my tendency that will backlash on me in the end.Well, i wouldn't look good if I start barking when bitten.being too angry with my pride wounded..the last thing to do is to bare everything on FB..I know i'm not perfect, the fault is partly mine.it's not that I am an angel or something like that..i need to sort my feelings and planning for a vengeance....i don't usually do vengeance....but this time...i can't tolerate anymore bullshit....i started a war..
My GB is always being a bitch....but one thing she's not is stab you from the back....i knew she was never the culprit behind the rumors....it was someone else...some who personally has a grudge on me...someone higher level than me...as soon as I find out....i decided...i will bring her down....
I always hand in things earlier than anybody, do things by the book and keep things to myself, i make sure i leave no loophole..except i sometimes sneakingly marking the exercise book in the classroom .But still it wasn't enough...i realise, not only you have to save your asses, you must utilize your enemy weaknesses to bring her down. to seal her lips and make sure,make her think twice before she started saying bad stuff about you. Let her know, if she try the same stunt again...she will pay a high price for it.
I am always the observant type. When i'm determine to do something, i will spend time working on it...I snooped around, find a loop hole here and there...and attack..and i don't miss the shot...my GPK1 is shot point blank in front of everyone....and I'm satisfied....
This woman been messing with me since the start of year, I don't even know her...but I know, she hated my guts...coz I dared smile sheepishly at her when she practically kissing my GB's butt....(well, those who knew me know that my face can't lie), people always know my thinking without me saying it out loud...my face is my number one betrayer....she gave me 5 KSSR classes to teach...and one KBSR class inclusive of 32 periods...the max to be given to a teacher..especially an English teacher..but I'm not complaining since it's part and parcel for the new teacher in the new school....but each day she started to show her spot, every time i ask her the key to the computer lab....she will give as many as excuses not to let me have the key, then it lead to something else...this form and that form, the stamp pad...she will make everything difficult for me. Then it lead to my RPM book. The teacher is entitled to a new book, if the teacher used up the current one. Once again, she denied my right to get a new book by saying that GB doesn't allow us to get a new book. So i photostatted the RPM book and bind them myself. She scolded me and said that I wasted a whole book to write a lengthy lesson plan..that i'm not smart at utilizing the book. She told me that she doesn't even use half of the book....so one day I decided to take a peek at her RPM and found out, she only teaches three KBSR moral classes....and how dare she compare her 1 page per day lesson plan to mine who has to  teach five KSSR classes, so she can't sit her ass leisurely when we have to do her admin work.the same goes when i asked for the SPPK form, when i said that the exam sec run out of the JSU form and ask her if she has a spare, she simply said "kalau dah habis raxxo je la, minta saya buat apa?" what da heck..how can i raxxo when i don't have the soft copy or the hard copy..you idiot...didn't I just tell you that the exam sec run out of the form......but I keep mum about it....i just thought of her as being a bitch.
But, this time the table has turn, as soon as I found her out that she spread rumor about me....she can't get away anymore...she can kiss the GB's ass...but I can make her look bad enough in front of everybody else..i will humiliate her enough to quiet her mouth.So during the briefing today, I started out simply by pointing the obvious that everybody hasn't dared to talk about...I play the blame game, I purposely talk in front of everybody about how the GPK1 still hasn't registered my e-pangkat and e-operasi so I can't fill in my details as the GB wanted.It's July and I haven't been registered yet...i look her in the eyes....watching her face is priceless....then I start saying how ridiculous it is that the afternoon teacher  to hand in our RPM book to GB before 3 o'clock when the somebody in the upper echelon, although working in the morning session can hand in on 6.00 o'clock or Saturday since she only did a page per day lesson plan. If you demand perfection from your subordinate, shouldn't you show the good example to them. And i said about the RPM being thin and there's no way it could last until the end of the year. Four of my colleagues have to photostat the RPM book ourselves...are we allowed to do so?...you can't make a copy of your register book...so can you actually make a copy of the RPM book? aren't both of them are Hak kerajaan?
Then i start mentioning about the rumor circulating about me, I dare her to prove the evidence about what she said...I explains that i personally asked to be transferred to KL and granted and not because of some disciplinary action taken towards me. If she did not take a long time enough to register me in the e-operasi and e-pangkat...she would have known about this too..she's the GPK1, she should have known...well one thing she didn't know...back in my old school, my ex GB give us permission to take a look at our details in  the e-pangkat, e-operasi and even e-tukar confirmation ourselves, so we know what's in there. How come when i personally typed "guru ini berkelakuan baik" in the ulasan column can be changed to something else.
I know I'm going to pay a high price for this later, but it takes a lot of courage on my side...and i've never been this angry....I may be everything bad....but i did every possible thing i could to improve myself....I'm not perfect...but spreading such lies to degrade me is low.....and she deserve it right in her face....
One thing i learn since I moved here, don't ever trust people to back you up...you must save your own ass...saving my own ass...thanks to the related person...i am able to do just fine....without even to kiss somebody's ass....I'm not trying to be in anyone good book...just don't touch me....and live me alone in my corner....

My addiction to FB...

It's been fourth day without FB, yeah...i can manage it....during these fourth day...i discovered that my addiction to FB, besides having practically no social life, i have an urge to share what i knew, what i discovered and my thought about certain issues...i have a tendency to think that some of my friends are idiots whom are an easy prey for rumor mongers...they don't read much, they don't analyse what they read, and they don't even bother to check the credentials of the news that are given to them, for an example..when they shared the photoshopped version of the feeder of Rosmah Mansor as a Malaysia Prime Minister...some people take it as it is....and start making a fuss about how stupid tv3 is for making such mistakes, some even says that even tv3 is admitting that Rosmah is the real Malaysia prime minister...it was supposed to be a joke.. a laughingstock....but some people have lack of skill to comprehend that...and it makes me think that i have a duty to correct that...
i hate politics but doesn't mean i have to be an idiot....months ago...the rumors about ron97 is much cheaper than ron95 surfaced....those idiots and loonies start cursing and ranting AMOK without even try to look for the answer....some blogs cover the issue and start making up the story about how the petrol attendant said that those who use ron95 are richer than who use ron97 until dato Ahmad Shabery explains to public....i've been surfing the whole day and night....just to find the answer before i draw to the conclusion...some people doesn't even take a second....therefore, i'm really amazed how prejudism can rule people's logic no matter how clever they are.
Internet consists of 50% lies....(even this is made up by me). Well the truth is, in this era, we no longer knew what's the truth and the lie...even your techno bible like wiki can easily been manipulated and twisted...believing the source of the internet is like believing polar bear lives in the south pole and penguin lives in the north pole....plausible but wrong....internet shows you the tip of the iceberg of every issue and every stories....but left a roomful of thinking process to takes place....your life won't be complete just knowing the tip of the iceberg and conclude it as a whole..back then, not every people are allowed to publish...therefore the level of intelligence is quite high...nowadays any village idiots possessing an email address can publish what they like in the blog (including me), their writing (myself included) are mostly trash..so it's the readers job to sort the diamond from the trash...
You may hate, you may disagree, but may not stop people to voice out their opinion...you can choose to believe or not to believe, but you can't choose to be an idiot....i'm not intelligent nor am i religious but what i know, you don't belittle others belief just because you think you are right...so i think, it's better i stop Fbing for a while, until can set myself straight...i don't want to label people as an idiot just because i think they are...it goes both ways too..i am ordinary people who has no right to tell others that they are wrong...in order to prevent that...i choose to live my life outside the tiny box for a while....not like i will be missed or something like that...life goes on...