Nearing 2008
Been watching TV last night..Benazir Buttho was assassinated...most people around me say "serve her right"...but i never look at it that way...I'm more focus on the casualties that occur and will occur due to the assassination...if revolutionary can be stop by shooting people at the head i guess...three quater of the world problem can easily be solved...the more i ponder into it, the more i think that life is just part of the game or the movie...just like The Godfather movie...eliminate those who might probably giving trouble even by the slightest chance..
the death of Benazir Buttho in the hand of someone who shooting the gun only prove one thing...nothing has change much in human politics.....she might be a woman politician who fight for democracy during her life but her death makes her a legend no one can easily erase from their memories for 100 years to come..in the end...she does makes a difference..
well,the value of the people usually greater when they died....especially if they die in the tragic way.just look at Abraham Lincoln,Elvis Presley,Sylvia Plath,Van Gough or Kurt Cobain,or Princess Diana....people love them more when they are dead than when they still alive....
for me, the death of Benazir Buttho won't end anything,it's only bring a new beginning for something...for better or worse...her death should worth something....
Miss him
GE result was expected..(from my point of view)
As a government servant to be n not really a fan of BN,I always in the dilemma to choose between both...d government has it's ugly side,but I love this country too much to give it up to the opposition..maybe i am being paranoid...talking to my lecturer last night, he said "if the opposition want chance,then give them the chance to prove they are worthy.After 4 years, if we think they just talk shit,we only have to switch back to BN..."But deep inside I still wondering does the opposition really cares about Malaysian people?if they just want justice?and for what purpose?...What does Anwar still want from Malaysia?What is his expectation? What does he gain from this?what about Lim Kit Siang n Nik Aziz? where is the guarantee that the price of our basic necessities won't be increasing when the whole world are facing with the increasing of fuel prices due to the unavoidable war?Or would the welfare country really benefit Malaysian or it just make thing even worse than before? or will the safety of this country be improved and we no longer have to mourn the lost of any child...
I watched Nightline last night.DR.M openly asked Pah Lah to step down..I admire his gut..but is there any suitable person to replace Pak Lah...No offense to Pak Lah...but it doesn't need the opposition to point out that he screwed things up badly..and Khairy's involvement just adding the salt to the wound...no denying he is a smart individual n know exactly what he wants...but his action is absurd...even blind people can see that he has something up behind his sleeve..n personally,the day that he end up becoming a pm is d day that i lose my faith in BN.Pray That will never happen.But to just condemn him is also totally absurd because the politic itself is dirty...when u become a politician,dirty game is your plaything.
Anwar is simply unreliable person to hold on to..maybe it's true that he had been badly abused and treated by the previous PM...but his action doesn't synchronize with his preaching..starting from the point when he formed an alliance with pas n dap (the party that he use to look down and mock around) rite after he was sacked from the government, his attempt to cause chaos during the opening of commonwealth 1998 sport event, His action of trying to borrow money from the IMF during recession when our x-PM was not around,the red carpet treatment from d US government,going here n there and badmouthing Malaysia in front of d people who love to see we crumble n fall is a sign that he is not the right leader for this country if that what he aims to become..
Najib on the other hand is full of controversy about his personal life.Does someone who has dark shadow lurking around is suitable to be our leader?Push aside the rumor about Altantuya,given d situation when it comes to adultery..how many of our politician esp the big shot either from BN or opposition do not involve in them? isn't that common? just look at what happen to Chua Soi Lek...he is so unlucky to be set up by his nemesis whoever he/she is...but what is our guarantee that the opposition is clean from those diseases?given the power n the opportunity,human nature will end up abusing it..
Dr.M is another story,the day that he stepped down was the day the his political career is suppose to end. to the world he is now an irreplaceable legend.It's good if he share his opinion with others once in a while, but if he do it too often people might think that he still eyeing for the throne..though i respected him so much..I do think that his time is over. As for Nik Aziz, though i respected him as religious person..from my point of view,he still far from becoming the PM,in the country where the integration of races still struggling in order just to surface, i don't think he has the capability to control the situation,we need someone whose heart is soft as sponge n at the same time hard as steel..unfortunately..this
Need i mention about Lim Kit Siang,if he dreams of becoming PM.it's time he forget the dream,if the Malays can't get rid of their sentiment, there's no way we can see PM from other races leading this country...but I respected his humble reply when asked about his purpose of competing in election.He said "sometimes it's good to have the opposite party in parliament,our job is to observe whether the government is doing things right and not the other way around.Objectivity is crucial when we want to decide for something important" and now that DAP win big, it's time for us to see whether he and his fellow party do things rightly or the other way around.Because action always speak louder than words... PKR was doing d right thing by appointing young candidate to compete...i do think Malaysian really need a fresh blood who are full of new idea n at the same time resourceful n useful in their thinking.But to Khairy n Izzah,they are an exception.Since we can see clearly who is the string behind their back..from my view the least Malaysian people want from the candidate is the opportunist manipulator or the puppet manipulated by the opportunist manipulator. However, this Recent GE shows that the political blood run deep in the political son/daughter/son-in-law/da
I watched Nightline last night.DR.M openly asked Pah Lah to step down..I admire his gut..but is there any suitable person to replace Pak Lah...No offense to Pak Lah...but it doesn't need the opposition to point out that he screwed things up badly..and Khairy's involvement just adding the salt to the wound...no denying he is a smart individual n know exactly what he wants...but his action is absurd...even blind people can see that he has something up behind his sleeve..n personally,the day that he end up becoming a pm is d day that i lose my faith in BN.Pray That will never happen.But to just condemn him is also totally absurd because the politic itself is dirty...when u become a politician,dirty game is your plaything.
Anwar is simply unreliable person to hold on to..maybe it's true that he had been badly abused and treated by the previous PM...but his action doesn't synchronize with his preaching..starting from the point when he formed an alliance with pas n dap (the party that he use to look down and mock around) rite after he was sacked from the government, his attempt to cause chaos during the opening of commonwealth 1998 sport event, His action of trying to borrow money from the IMF during recession when our x-PM was not around,the red carpet treatment from d US government,going here n there and badmouthing Malaysia in front of d people who love to see we crumble n fall is a sign that he is not the right leader for this country if that what he aims to become..
Najib on the other hand is full of controversy about his personal life.Does someone who has dark shadow lurking around is suitable to be our leader?Push aside the rumor about Altantuya,given d situation when it comes to adultery..how many of our politician esp the big shot either from BN or opposition do not involve in them? isn't that common? just look at what happen to Chua Soi Lek...he is so unlucky to be set up by his nemesis whoever he/she is...but what is our guarantee that the opposition is clean from those diseases?given the power n the opportunity,human nature will end up abusing it..
Dr.M is another story,the day that he stepped down was the day the his political career is suppose to end. to the world he is now an irreplaceable legend.It's good if he share his opinion with others once in a while, but if he do it too often people might think that he still eyeing for the throne..though i respected him so much..I do think that his time is over. As for Nik Aziz, though i respected him as religious person..from my point of view,he still far from becoming the PM,in the country where the integration of races still struggling in order just to surface, i don't think he has the capability to control the situation,we need someone whose heart is soft as sponge n at the same time hard as steel..unfortunately..this
Need i mention about Lim Kit Siang,if he dreams of becoming PM.it's time he forget the dream,if the Malays can't get rid of their sentiment, there's no way we can see PM from other races leading this country...but I respected his humble reply when asked about his purpose of competing in election.He said "sometimes it's good to have the opposite party in parliament,our job is to observe whether the government is doing things right and not the other way around.Objectivity is crucial when we want to decide for something important" and now that DAP win big, it's time for us to see whether he and his fellow party do things rightly or the other way around.Because action always speak louder than words... PKR was doing d right thing by appointing young candidate to compete...i do think Malaysian really need a fresh blood who are full of new idea n at the same time resourceful n useful in their thinking.But to Khairy n Izzah,they are an exception.Since we can see clearly who is the string behind their back..from my view the least Malaysian people want from the candidate is the opportunist manipulator or the puppet manipulated by the opportunist manipulator. However, this Recent GE shows that the political blood run deep in the political son/daughter/son-in-law/da
Sticky finger....
Some people might wonder what is the meaning of "sticky finger"..well, it's not a vulgar connotation..."sticky finger" means addiction or tendencies to steal things from the person who close to you...
The victim is always left in the dilemma when this "sticky finger" phenomenon occurred.."to tell or not to tell". It creates the atmosphere of distrust,deepening the doubt and usually the victim will be haunted by guilt-ridden if they do tell other people....
It's true that the one should be blame is the stealer...but the victim is also responsible. People might say "told you,she could not be trusted." "serve you well,why so careless?" and so on....
the victim also feel uncomfortable to confront the stealer, because they are very close to each other. The question in mind are"what if he/she is not the one who took my thing?" "what if she's innocent?" "what if i blame the wrong people?"...
The day it ended...
still mourning about my ended relationship...sometimes i feel like i don't have a strength to carry on. to think that i've spent almost three years of my life for nothing is really disturbing me...it's so hard to move on after three years of getting used in the world of relationship...i hope i'm strong enough....i have to...
I'm tired of Namawee...
The victim is always left in the dilemma when this "sticky finger" phenomenon occurred.."to tell or not to tell". It creates the atmosphere of distrust,deepening the doubt and usually the victim will be haunted by guilt-ridden if they do tell other people....
It's true that the one should be blame is the stealer...but the victim is also responsible. People might say "told you,she could not be trusted." "serve you well,why so careless?" and so on....
the victim also feel uncomfortable to confront the stealer, because they are very close to each other. The question in mind are"what if he/she is not the one who took my thing?" "what if she's innocent?" "what if i blame the wrong people?"...
The day it ended...
10th April 2008, i officially broke up with him. The process went smoothly, i did not even cry at all. Only 8 hours later.I know i could get through it. The only thing that i regretted was the fact that we broke up when my stomach is empty and it is nearly examination, damn i could not eat a thing after that but i was hungry god knows how it feels..
Most of friends said I'm stupid for breaking up. For them, there is no reason for breaking up. Wish i could tell it to myself and him. but we know that this relationship cannot go on. it will only make both of us suffer.Though how strong is the love, still love it's not the only thing in the world we need to consider. Both of us been dying to avoid the truth...it makes us cry deep inside for not knowing what the future is going to be.
Though the break up part really hurt, but when i am able to see clearly through it. it bring me relief. coz i know, there are certain things that i can let go now and there are things that i can concentrate in order to move on. I am glad it's over.
I just want to cherish the not much time we have left while he still here, i want to laugh, i want to smile, make a stupid joke, go to the places we've been going before, sharing our food together and watching movies.
I really want to thank him for giving me the joyous part in my life and to make me realize that relationship is not only about two people fell in love with each other, it is much deeper and complicated. it relates with life of other people and things around us. selfishness won't help in winning the situation. sometimes, letting go is the best cure for the pain and the heart ache that we are going through.
i promise him i would be strong and i will. because i'm not the only one who feel this pain. he suffers a lot too. there are others out there who suffers because of the same thing. i believe that god is fair. if god want me to be with him, then i will be with him one day, but if god think the other way...i just have to accept the fact that it is over. he just a fragment of my sweet memory. we believe, our desicion will bring everyone affected happiness and relief. and finally, we can breath without feeling guilty.
Most of friends said I'm stupid for breaking up. For them, there is no reason for breaking up. Wish i could tell it to myself and him. but we know that this relationship cannot go on. it will only make both of us suffer.Though how strong is the love, still love it's not the only thing in the world we need to consider. Both of us been dying to avoid the truth...it makes us cry deep inside for not knowing what the future is going to be.
Though the break up part really hurt, but when i am able to see clearly through it. it bring me relief. coz i know, there are certain things that i can let go now and there are things that i can concentrate in order to move on. I am glad it's over.
I just want to cherish the not much time we have left while he still here, i want to laugh, i want to smile, make a stupid joke, go to the places we've been going before, sharing our food together and watching movies.
I really want to thank him for giving me the joyous part in my life and to make me realize that relationship is not only about two people fell in love with each other, it is much deeper and complicated. it relates with life of other people and things around us. selfishness won't help in winning the situation. sometimes, letting go is the best cure for the pain and the heart ache that we are going through.
i promise him i would be strong and i will. because i'm not the only one who feel this pain. he suffers a lot too. there are others out there who suffers because of the same thing. i believe that god is fair. if god want me to be with him, then i will be with him one day, but if god think the other way...i just have to accept the fact that it is over. he just a fragment of my sweet memory. we believe, our desicion will bring everyone affected happiness and relief. and finally, we can breath without feeling guilty.
piece of garbage...
still mourning about my ended relationship...sometimes i feel like i don't have a strength to carry on. to think that i've spent almost three years of my life for nothing is really disturbing me...it's so hard to move on after three years of getting used in the world of relationship...i hope i'm strong enough....i have to...
I'm tired of Namawee...
I'm tired of his story....who is him anyway...just an insignificant character in Malaysian nation...personally, this type of people will be the first to run away if Malaysian is having a war....we are talking about loyalty,patriotism,nationa
boring dgn sandiwara politik dan harge barang yg naik
nak tergelak aku melihat sandiwara politik anwar dgn najib nih...main pas-pas tuduh lak...klu rase xbersalah sangat ikut je cadangan mufti perlis tuh...junjung kuran...kalau sanggup kene laknat dunia akhirat...aku ase xpayah lah diorg nih nak menegakkan kan benang yg basah...sengal aku...dah name ahli politik..jangan kate diri anda innocent...geli I dengar tau...tetibe aku teringat kate adik aku tentang pasal arwah seorg ahli parti politik pembangkang yg memang jujur dan amanah memikul tanggungjawabnye Dr Fadzil Nor. Mase mati beliau,awan pun lindung tau...ntah2 due ekor makhluk nih...tah ribut petir gak nye yg dtg...ish...jahat sungguh tangan aku yg menaip nih...aku bowink wes....bace paper asik tgk muke diorg 2 org nih...sorg kate die ni gay la, barua US la, sorg lagi kate die ni gile betina la,laki pembunuh la...mcm due2 baik sgt,zuhud sgt....aku bukanlah pengikut due2 org nih,dan takkan mengakui mereka nih pemimpin aku.pada pengikut dua org makhluk tuhan tersebut maaflah kalau kate aku ni kasar sket.cume aku ase skang nih,isu berlagak mangsa nih dah basi dan taklaku...sedang kite bercakar sesame sendiri...kite lupe...ade org lain yg gelakkan kite...hihi...aku pon gelak gak kadang2..aku ade gak terbace psl response mukhriz psl isu konspirasi terhadap anuar nih...bak kate mukhriz la,die kate yek bukan aku kate "dulu anuar sebok2 kate die kene suntik HIV la ,arsenik la.mase kt penjare dulu.sihat wal'afiat je die smpai skang."Yg Najib lak,dh terang2 kantoi nk cover ag"...udah le tu pak jib wes...ubahlah sikap gile betine anda tuh...huih...aku boring la...diorang nih dok kepoh2...kat paper,arge minyak naik gak...arge brg naik gak...aku ase dari surat khabar duk focus kt diorang 2 org nih...baik surat khabar siasat tokey2 besar yg kaut untung time sume brg naik arge...tokey kilang gule boleh jadi paling kaye kt malaysia nih....tp bekalan gule taun lepas ala nyawa-nyawa ikan jer...tah2 taun nih tokey tepung dgn minyak masak lak kot yg dpt top ten org paling kaye kt malaysia nih....facial wash aku pon naik arge mencanak dari rm11.90 ke rm15.buat pakai petrol ke hape facial wash aku tuh.....aku makan kat pelita arge tak naik pulak....aku tensen...dah rrrr....sblom aku melalut dgn lebih panjang ag....baik aku berenti di sini...
kecurian di rumah ku...
aku dan rakan-rakan rumahku telah mengalami kecurian yang berlaku pada waktu pagi yang hening...beberapa barang2 berharga seperti digital camera, handphone,duit rakan2ku, dan laptop ku juga telah selamat di curi (peh yang paling mahal pulak tuh)...pada sesiapa yang amat kaya dan tak tau nak buat ape dengan lap top nya. boleh lah sedekah kepada aku kerana aku sangat2 memerlukan laptop untuk membuat portfolio praktikum aku yang perlu diupdate setiap hari...aku malu nak buruk siku kat adik kecik aku...nak amik pc aku balik....
aku keliru....
fikiran aku kah yang jumud, tertutup dan kampung...
sejak PKR memerintah selangor nih, selangor tak lame lagi akan ade kandang babi yg efisien hasil kepakaran german.sungai takkan tercemar lagi, hasil buangan babi tu boleh digunakan sumber alternatif untuk tenaga elektrik...jimat sket diesel nanti...banyak betul benefit die kan....tokey babi pun makin kaye (sekarang pun dah kaye dah), yela,semua part babi tu kan boleh dimakan dari kepale sampai kaki.(member cine aku yg citer kenape org bela babi), poket pemerintah pun makin kembung (tokey babi tuh bayar tax tau),orang-orang selangor makin senang. Yelah, banyak bantuan dapat disalurkan hasil bayar tax tuh nanti.jadi semua pihak pun dapat merasa faedahnye.menguntungkan tuh.
Skang nih Tan Sri Khalid syorkan UITM bagi 10% kuota kat non-Bumi.langkah yang bijak tuh.Di saat-saat melayu di ambang kehancuran nih.memang bagus cadangan itu.aku bukan heran sangat sape yang masuk UITM tuh.aku pun hidup dalam masyarakat yang majmuk.tak kecoh pun. tapi renungkanlah. kalau UITM pun ade kaum lain dah masuk.ape lagi yang melayu ade...MCKK?????aku memang support equality.tapi kalau kite je yg laung-laungkan mende tu,tak cukup jugak.Mase aku keje part time dulu.gaji aku tetap murah seratus due dari budak-budak cina.buat kerje sama tara je.alasan yang die bagi memang bullshit.kononnye orang Melayu dapat bantuan kerajaan.ape punye jumud la.Selame aku idup sampai ari nih, sekali pun aku tak merasa ape-ape bantuan dari kerajaan.Masa masuk University la baru aku dapat biasiswa.itu biasiswa ye, maksudnye aku layak dapat.aku tak gune cable pun.tak meminta-minta dari mana-mana agensi kerajaan atau bukan kerajaan walaupun aku orang Melayu.Celah mana hak dan keistimewaan orang Melayu tuh.Aku tak pernah rasa pun.Aku ase hidup aku sama je macam kawan-kawan cina aku yang lain.takde beza.course yang aku amik nih pun ramai je chinese.kitorang semua elok je, muafakat je.Semua pun dapat biasiswa kerajaan.
diskriminasi agama???betulke berlaku kat negara kite? cube pikir balik dalam-dalam.betulke Kerajaan diskriminasi agama lain.Tuh yang besar dekat pusat membeli-belah MidValley tuh ape.Dekat depan sekolah aku lagi besar.Dekat batu caves ade lagi yang besar...kalau betul wujud diskriminasi agama.boleh ke institusi-institusi keagamaan ini wujud dan buat besar-besar lagi.Mari sini datang PJ, rumah ibadat apa yang takde.Rumah ibadat Melayu kristian pun ade.semua pun bebas mengamalkan pegangan masing-masing.
Bila orang sakit hati pasal forum memeluk islam yang majlis peguam buat, aku lagi sakit hati dengan video yang bertajuk Crossing the bridge yang orang putih buat pasal agama aku dan bangsa aku.Aku nak je suruh orang putih tu pindah duduk kat sini,tengok betul-betul budaya kat sini. Apesal nak kecoh-kecoh pasal orang Arab datang sini. Kenape nak paranoid sangat. Kerana orang Arab tu lah, tokey-tokey besar kat Malaysia ni makin kaya. Bos mak aku je dah ade 5 butik kat Dubai sane tuh.Bos mak aku tuh bukan islam.Bley je diterima.berbalik tentang forum memeluk islam tuh.cube kita fikir balik.salah siapa sebenarnye. Tukar agama bukan benda main-main macam tukar baju.individu tu kena ada pegangan yang kuat.mane ade bende senang dalam hidup.ahli keluarga pun kena la hormat pilihan individu itu.Tak kira apa bangsa pun,Kite mesti tak suke ahli keluarga kita tukar agama.Kalau dah tukar tu, nak tak nak terima je la.pasal Islam pulak.memang tak ada paksaan bila nak peluk islam.nak peluk islam,peluklah.Tapi bile dah peluk islam mane boleh nak murtad sesuka hati.Ini tidak,mase peluk islam dulu bukan pasal tuhan.tapi pasal cinta.bila suami ke isteri ke buat hal.tak bertanggungjawab.salahkan agama yang tak betul.Bile tak dapat bantuan.terus hilang iman.Adilke macam tu.Ada tu pulak dah masuk islam.tapi rahsiakan dari pengetahuan keluarga.bila meninggal dah sibuk-sibuk rebut mayat.kan menyusahkan semua orang tu.Kalau nak rahsiakan sekali pun pasal anutan,buatlah wasiat supaya ahli keluarga tahu.kita tak tau kita mati bila.Aku tension balik-balik jabatan agama yang kena.
Kepada siapa-siapa yang tak puas hati pasal forum memeluk Islam tuh, ape kate pasni korang buat lak forum memeluk agama Kristian ke,memeluk agama Buddha ke, memeluk agama hindu ke,baru la balance.Ni tidak, kite dari dulu lagi asik tunggu dan tengok.Zaman berpiket,berdemonstrasi dah berlalu.keganasan dan kekacauan takkan bawa kita ke mana-mana.Ilmu je yang jadi penyuluh hidup.
sejak PKR memerintah selangor nih, selangor tak lame lagi akan ade kandang babi yg efisien hasil kepakaran german.sungai takkan tercemar lagi, hasil buangan babi tu boleh digunakan sumber alternatif untuk tenaga elektrik...jimat sket diesel nanti...banyak betul benefit die kan....tokey babi pun makin kaye (sekarang pun dah kaye dah), yela,semua part babi tu kan boleh dimakan dari kepale sampai kaki.(member cine aku yg citer kenape org bela babi), poket pemerintah pun makin kembung (tokey babi tuh bayar tax tau),orang-orang selangor makin senang. Yelah, banyak bantuan dapat disalurkan hasil bayar tax tuh nanti.jadi semua pihak pun dapat merasa faedahnye.menguntungkan tuh.
Skang nih Tan Sri Khalid syorkan UITM bagi 10% kuota kat non-Bumi.langkah yang bijak tuh.Di saat-saat melayu di ambang kehancuran nih.memang bagus cadangan itu.aku bukan heran sangat sape yang masuk UITM tuh.aku pun hidup dalam masyarakat yang majmuk.tak kecoh pun. tapi renungkanlah. kalau UITM pun ade kaum lain dah masuk.ape lagi yang melayu ade...MCKK?????aku memang support equality.tapi kalau kite je yg laung-laungkan mende tu,tak cukup jugak.Mase aku keje part time dulu.gaji aku tetap murah seratus due dari budak-budak cina.buat kerje sama tara je.alasan yang die bagi memang bullshit.kononnye orang Melayu dapat bantuan kerajaan.ape punye jumud la.Selame aku idup sampai ari nih, sekali pun aku tak merasa ape-ape bantuan dari kerajaan.Masa masuk University la baru aku dapat biasiswa.itu biasiswa ye, maksudnye aku layak dapat.aku tak gune cable pun.tak meminta-minta dari mana-mana agensi kerajaan atau bukan kerajaan walaupun aku orang Melayu.Celah mana hak dan keistimewaan orang Melayu tuh.Aku tak pernah rasa pun.Aku ase hidup aku sama je macam kawan-kawan cina aku yang lain.takde beza.course yang aku amik nih pun ramai je chinese.kitorang semua elok je, muafakat je.Semua pun dapat biasiswa kerajaan.
diskriminasi agama???betulke berlaku kat negara kite? cube pikir balik dalam-dalam.betulke Kerajaan diskriminasi agama lain.Tuh yang besar dekat pusat membeli-belah MidValley tuh ape.Dekat depan sekolah aku lagi besar.Dekat batu caves ade lagi yang besar...kalau betul wujud diskriminasi agama.boleh ke institusi-institusi keagamaan ini wujud dan buat besar-besar lagi.Mari sini datang PJ, rumah ibadat apa yang takde.Rumah ibadat Melayu kristian pun ade.semua pun bebas mengamalkan pegangan masing-masing.
Bila orang sakit hati pasal forum memeluk islam yang majlis peguam buat, aku lagi sakit hati dengan video yang bertajuk Crossing the bridge yang orang putih buat pasal agama aku dan bangsa aku.Aku nak je suruh orang putih tu pindah duduk kat sini,tengok betul-betul budaya kat sini. Apesal nak kecoh-kecoh pasal orang Arab datang sini. Kenape nak paranoid sangat. Kerana orang Arab tu lah, tokey-tokey besar kat Malaysia ni makin kaya. Bos mak aku je dah ade 5 butik kat Dubai sane tuh.Bos mak aku tuh bukan islam.Bley je diterima.berbalik tentang forum memeluk islam tuh.cube kita fikir balik.salah siapa sebenarnye. Tukar agama bukan benda main-main macam tukar baju.individu tu kena ada pegangan yang kuat.mane ade bende senang dalam hidup.ahli keluarga pun kena la hormat pilihan individu itu.Tak kira apa bangsa pun,Kite mesti tak suke ahli keluarga kita tukar agama.Kalau dah tukar tu, nak tak nak terima je la.pasal Islam pulak.memang tak ada paksaan bila nak peluk islam.nak peluk islam,peluklah.Tapi bile dah peluk islam mane boleh nak murtad sesuka hati.Ini tidak,mase peluk islam dulu bukan pasal tuhan.tapi pasal cinta.bila suami ke isteri ke buat hal.tak bertanggungjawab.salahkan agama yang tak betul.Bile tak dapat bantuan.terus hilang iman.Adilke macam tu.Ada tu pulak dah masuk islam.tapi rahsiakan dari pengetahuan keluarga.bila meninggal dah sibuk-sibuk rebut mayat.kan menyusahkan semua orang tu.Kalau nak rahsiakan sekali pun pasal anutan,buatlah wasiat supaya ahli keluarga tahu.kita tak tau kita mati bila.Aku tension balik-balik jabatan agama yang kena.
Kepada siapa-siapa yang tak puas hati pasal forum memeluk Islam tuh, ape kate pasni korang buat lak forum memeluk agama Kristian ke,memeluk agama Buddha ke, memeluk agama hindu ke,baru la balance.Ni tidak, kite dari dulu lagi asik tunggu dan tengok.Zaman berpiket,berdemonstrasi dah berlalu.keganasan dan kekacauan takkan bawa kita ke mana-mana.Ilmu je yang jadi penyuluh hidup.
aku dan kubur....
kepada rakanku yang kusayangi,
tiada apa yang lebih menyedihkan berbanding menziarahi kubur orang kesayangan kite,mencabut rumput2 yang tumbuh meliar,dan mensedekahkan al-fatihah dekat die...so isu itu sangat sensetive untuk disebut atau di sentuh....janganlah sekali-sekali kau umpamakan perasaan itu.sebab cume orang yang pernah rase je yang tau perasaan tuh....
malu wes
tiada apa yang lebih menyedihkan berbanding menziarahi kubur orang kesayangan kite,mencabut rumput2 yang tumbuh meliar,dan mensedekahkan al-fatihah dekat die...so isu itu sangat sensetive untuk disebut atau di sentuh....janganlah sekali-sekali kau umpamakan perasaan itu.sebab cume orang yang pernah rase je yang tau perasaan tuh....
malu wes
Tadi aku kene gelak dengan Ervinna n Izwaidah pasal salah nyanyi lagu Jalur Gemilang...Aku rase hina gila....mase tuh...insaf sekejap aku bertape aku dah lupe diri aku ni.Lagu patriotik pun dah tak ingat...lame la gak aku duduk diam sorang-sorang tadi memikirkan kealpaan aku.terfikir aku,berapa ramai antara kita yang hafal rukun negara...dan berapa ramai yang praktikkan betul-betul rukun negara tu.Setau aku rukun tuh,maksudnye asas.bende basic yang semua orang sepatutnya ada.Tapi skang nih, berapa ramai dah rakyat Malaysia yang tak percaya tuhan,berapa ramai yang dah tak hormat raja,berape ramai yang berani memperlekehkan perlembagaan dan undang-undang dan berapa ramai yang masih berpegang pada adap sopan.Aku sendiri pun dah banyak langgar ape yang ada dalam rukun negara tuh.layak ke lagi aku nih di gelar rakyat Malaysia kalau aku tak ikut ape yang ade dalam rukun negara tuh...malu betul aku ari ni.So siapa-siapa yang rasa dia pun hampeh macam aku gak,ape kate kite cube ubah sikap kita sempena bukan kemerdekaan nih.kalau rase berat sgt nk buat,ape kate korang pindah je negara lain.alang-alang ekonomi Malaysia skang nih dah semakin lembap.Migrate la ramai-ramai.Boleh Malaysia amik semakin banyak pekerja asing ganti tempat korang.Sebab orang luar nih lebih tau bersyukur dari orang negara kita sendiri.Semoga sempena bulan kemerdekaan kita akan ingat jasa-jasa pejuang kemerdekaan yang bergadai nyawa demi memperjuangkan kemerdekaan kita dulu, macam Mat Kilau,Dato Bahaman,Dato Maharaja Lela, Mat Salleh, Haji Abdul Rahman limbong,Temenggung Jugah, Rentap dan lain2 lagi.Janganlah kita senang-senang gadaikan tanah air kita yang merdeka dengan darah mereka ni hanya kerana perkara yang remeh-temeh.Sesusah-susah kita sekarang, tetap tak boleh dibandingkan dengan keperitan nenek moyang kita yang hidup menumpang di negeri sendiri...Pernah dengar lagu anak kecil main api tak?
mase kat Mrsm dulu aku slalu kene nyani lagu nih mase assembly,serius kalau aku dengar lagu nih sampai skang pun aku rase sebak...insaf sekejap...huhu pastu lupe gak.Ape kate kite renungkan same2:
rik :
Anak Kecil Main Api
Terbakar Hatinya Yang Sepi
Airmata Darah Bercampur Keringat
Bumi Dipijak Milik Orang
Nenek Moyang Kaya Raya
Tergadai Seluruh Harta Benda
Akibat Sengketa Sesamalah Kita
Cinta Lenyap Di Arus Zaman
Indahnya Bumi Kita Ini
Warisan Berkurun Lamanya
Hasil Mengalir Ke Tangan Yang Lain
Pribumi Merintih Sendiri
Masa Depan Sungguh Kelam
Kan Lenyap Peristiwa Semalam
Tertutuplah Hati Terkunci Mati
Maruah Peribadi Dah Hilang
Kini Kita Cuma Tinggal Kuasa
Yang Akan Menentukan Bangsa
Bersatulah Hati Bersama Berbakti
Pulih Kembali Harga Diri
Kita Sudah Tiada Masa
Majulah Dengan Gagah Perkasa
Jangan Lalai Teruskan Usaha
Melayu Kan Gagah Di Nusantara
aku bukan pro Melayu la...
Sape kate aku pro Melayu...sape2 rapat dengan aku musti tau berape kilo aku kutuk bangsa aku sendiri....tapi aku sayang dengan bangsa aku.salah ke kalau aku sayang bangsa aku sendiri sebab aku sedar diri aku ni siapa.aku bukan kacukan cina nak mengaku cina,aku bukan kacukan india nak mengaku india, bukan kacukan mat saleh atau negro.Walaupun amik TESL aku cakap bahasa Melayu tetap xde slang.Aku xpandai cakap bahasa melayu slang british ni...I feel stupid speaking in malay with those kind of slang.Aku seorang rakyat Malaysia yang hanya mau hidup aman,tengok wayang bile aku free,jalan2 bile aku ade mood.Bile ade orang yang cube merosakkan kedamaian rutin aku,memang la aku xske.lebih2 lagi aku nih agak tactless dalam percakapan.Jenis cakap direct to the point. Memanglah sesetengah orang cakap aku laser.(sesetengah konon).
Setiap orang ade corak pemikiran masing-masing.ade yg ske tengok bende dari sudut positif,ade yang tgk dari sudut negatif,ade yang sinikal,ade yang rasional,ade yang gune kepale lutut.Aku sendiri byk gak pk gune kepale lutut aku.cakap xpk perasaan orang lain.the question between right and wrong is too subjective to be discussed.so time ni la kite kene pk balik2 ape sebenarnye yang kite nak,ape yang paling penting sekali.
Untuk aku,aku nk keamanan.aku paling benci orang main tikam belakang naikkan isu perkauman yang sepatutnya xmenjadi isu.orang macam ni baik kene penggal je.
Setiap orang ade corak pemikiran masing-masing.ade yg ske tengok bende dari sudut positif,ade yang tgk dari sudut negatif,ade yang sinikal,ade yang rasional,ade yang gune kepale lutut.Aku sendiri byk gak pk gune kepale lutut aku.cakap xpk perasaan orang lain.the question between right and wrong is too subjective to be discussed.so time ni la kite kene pk balik2 ape sebenarnye yang kite nak,ape yang paling penting sekali.
Untuk aku,aku nk keamanan.aku paling benci orang main tikam belakang naikkan isu perkauman yang sepatutnya xmenjadi isu.orang macam ni baik kene penggal je.
aku menyampah dgn ko...
gila menyampah...klu boleh nk mencarut2....benci gila aku.....benci benci benci....cam hampeh....mcmla aku amik tau pon psl die...klu xpsl member aku slalu mengumpat die.xhingin pun nk cakap psl die.buang mase aku je.nk ejek2 aku pulak,macam bagus.macam aku ade utang dgn die.xpe wut goes around comes around...tuhan dh tunjuk sket2 tuh.blahla...xkebulur aku nk menyebok psl ko.wat hal ko sendri je dah la.aku byk lagi bende dlm life aku nk settle.aku dah accept kenyataan...ko bile lagi.Jgn salahkan aku klu aku ckp kurang ajar...aku mls dah nk ckp elok2 dgn org yang xckp elok2 dgn org lain.mcm die sorang je tau sakit ati.ejek org nombor satu.boleh berambus...dgn org jenis mcm ko mmg mulut aku kurang ajar.
i feel sad and dumbfounded...
i feel so damn sad rite now and it makes me want to cry...i just miss him so bad...i used to talk to him when i have a problem and he will calmly listen though he was not interested...I can't even call him, chat with him or write a letter to him..i can't even meet him anymore..and i wonder why i always have to be far apart from someoone that i really care about...why can't these person just stay here beside me and not going anywhere...
Bully...
i thought when i grew up..i will never have to listen to this word again..and it's really rare for to get bullied by other people because i'm not an easy prey to be picked on.But recently, it happened. And I'm too helpless to avert it.Damn, I hate it when we are in the position of under someone else's mercy....all i can do is wait....waiting to pay her back...when everything is over...
so much for treat me as you treat your friends bullshit...
Today u told me i wasn't treating u as i treated my friend...i was quite stunned...and i wonder could you actually treat me as you friend...because i wonder how lucky it is to be your friends...at least you allow yourself to make stupid jokes in front of them...or being flirtatious with your girl friends and take care of thier baggage like a damn potter while they go shopping....at least i know you would cancel your date with your girl just to hang out and watch stupid football with me. and i know you would eat with me and later go to dinner with your starving girlfriend and tell her "just eat what you want, i've eaten with my friend".Or simply sit beside me to wait for the bus taking me to my hometown and let you go home alone by yourself...or join me to go travel everywhere i want because it is not much time we can hang out together as buddies before we graduated and tell your girl "i can't go travel with you though i promise you i would bring you the island because my budget is tight and i need to save for my posting later"...and i know i dun have to bother hanging out with you (though i know you live far from here and it's rare chance for you to come here) because i was so busy handling my own business.and i can simply nag about how less time you spent with me rather than with your girl though i see you a lot in class, and live under the same room with you and get to spent the weekend with you coz your girl is prohibited by her mother to go out during weekend. i know you never will raise your voice to me if i ask you to join me during your date..coz i know you'll rush hurrily to me...and smsing non stop wit me in front of your girl...but when your girl do the same to you...you will make face, keep quiet the rest of the time and reminded your girl that you are suppose to hang out with me and not her at the first place (as if you see her everyday). You really wish to be brothers, just like in the 5 series of infernal affairs movies and the godfather...that shit turns you on..isn't it? but the last time time i remember Micheal did kill Freddy in the Godfather though they are blood brothers....i'm sure you dun know because you never read the book...yeah you just simply watch that 3 series movie...yeah....i really wish i was your friend...coz i can happily see you getting married with another girl.....and i dun have to get my hope high when you hold my hand, or try to sneak kissing me even after we broke up.....how can you be so cruel to hug me from the back and lay your head on it when you know that there is no way that both of us could be together as we were before....and on my birthday...i was told that you are going to be somebody else husband sooner...and the later would be two years...what do you expect me to do??? treating you as my friend after almost three years we spent together being not just friend...i wish i could do that as easily as you said it to me...
