bad breath....

I wake up with the constant stabbing pain at my upper right jaw from the front to the back. My throat is sore. My nostril feel itchy. It's not pleasant. I've been suffering the same thing after the infection. It keeps getting worse. And my breath stink.
At first, I thought it's because of my teeth. But I'm the diligent type. I brush my teeth, I floss. I use mouthwash. I go to dentist for scaling and filling. I polish my teeth. The dentist says that my teeth are clean. The problem it's not my teeth.
One day, my jaw hurt really bad that I felt like pulling off all my teeth at once. I straightaway went to the dentist. The dentist said, it's not my teeth that caused the pain. He pressed my upper cheek and my forehead. It was painful. The dentist referred me to ENT at PPUM. The doctor said I have sinus infection. I was given antibiotic and some medicine to control it. She said, the infection gave me the bad breath.
I thought after a dosage of antibiotic. things would get better. But the doc said. The infection at the sinus area takes time to recover. because our sinus cavity is always wet, plus I have a sensitive nose and allergies that will keep producing the mucus.The living place of the culprit. So therefore although I take the antibiotic, the bacteria will not be ridden so easily. Most of the time. It develops immunity. I took the medicine to dry up my mucus. But the dosage is quite heavy back then, it caused me to feel sleepy and dizzy most of the time. but later, I got used to it. But after 2 years. it doesn't make a different. I've been through numbers of antibiotics with variation of dosage from Augmentine to avelox to Zinmat. Avelox caused me depression and tremor as the side effect and Augmentin made me bleed. But dosage after dosage. The problem still remain.
Every time I wake up, the pain exist and the taste that lingers in my mouth is bitter. I can't help it that my nose is sensitive. we are talking about Malaysia where the spores are everywhere. The food we ate has toxin too. When it comes to the food I eat,i'm allergic to belacan, keropok lekor, prawn, squid, crab, budu, cincaluk, cili api, dried shrimp.....these are the basic ingredient in Malaysia dishes.....that's why i prefer to eat western food...When it comes to the air I breath, the haze, the pollen, the spores, the unknown metal particles, the heavy chemical particles triggers my allergic reaction..it' produces more mucus  and it makes my whole skin itchy..I'm constantly dependent on antihistamine to contain it. But in the long run, it caused my nose to become more sensitive than ever.
As the last resort, the doc suggested operation. I went along with the plan. Anything that make me better. I'm on it. The operation did work temporarily. I am no longer coughing like mad. I used to cough endlessly because of the mucus. I no longer have runny nose that block my nostril. But the problem with the bad breath comes after 2 or 3 weeks...after the bacteria manage to overcome the antibiotic. So the doctor decided, no more antibiotic. The doc said, there's a possibility...the bacteria were immune with antibiotic. The doc stop all the medication. So at the moment, I'm on the medication detox. I take no pill, except for the antihistamine and drink lots of orange juice.
But i have to see people, interact with people. People are judgmental, they are the creature of judgement. I can't go around telling people my sad story to each of them and hope they will understand. When I am with the kids, they often ask, and I explain to them. No, my teeth is not rotten. It's my nose. Sooner or later, they get over it. But, it's a different story with adult. adults are not so accepting as the kids. They don't try to understand, they avoid it.
I don't want to make people be uncomfortable around me. I feel uncomfortable too. It's my fucking breath. It's my life, my job. It caused me to have inferiority complex. Every time I see people, I try not to be paranoid. They judge. Because if i were in their position. I would judge too. That's why I don't want to hang out in the big crowd, I don't want to know someone new. Who doesn't have any idea about my problem. It's kind of hard to interact. I try to distance myself from people. But in reality, I can't.
My mom keep insisting that I have to get married any sooner. but with the condition I have. There's no way I'm going to embarrass myself out there and be judged by the guy I met. No freaking way. I don't know when will this problem of mine will be cured. And I don't want to make people understand and symphatize with me. I just want them to leave me alone until I'm able to cure it.