Assuming...practical or totally way off it???...

Well..well...well.....
bercakap tentang assuming...dulu tyme kelas science kt U, ade sorg kawan aku selalu kene jerit dgn lecture aku bile lecture tanye die soalan....contohnye...klu lecture tu tanye "why the velocity increases as the speed increases?"...n minah ni akan jawab camni "I think......" blom pas abis cakap...lecturer dah sembur dulu  "I dun giv a damn about what you think....I want facts not just some assumption you made..."...pastu minah ni akan wat muke xde perasaan die kat lecture tuh...sambil kitorg...cube menahan mulut dari tersengih.....gile ko...klu kitorg sengih secare terang-terangan musti kitorg lak kena bambu dgn lecture tu...
So berbalik kepada assumption..aku adalah seorg yg agak cepat wat assumption when it comes to my personal life..kire 1+1=2 punye stock...kadang2 being professional in judgement when it relates to real life adalah seperti mencurah air ke daun keladi...you know...the fact is there...but it is nowhere near important to what we think...for example...even aku tau, pakwe aku masih belajar and there is no freaking way aku dgn die bley kawin awal coz..mane die ade duit nak masuk meminang aku, nak jaga makan minum aku...n aku tau aku akan hidup susah dgn die if I proceed with the no prospect plan...tp aku turutkan juga....sebab aku assume if we love each other.,...nothing really matters right???...but aku lupe nak consider the fact...yg kt kolej die masih ramai awek mude bergetah,....aku lupe consider factor yg die mempunyai ego yg tinggi n rase rendah diri yang tebal..aku lupe consider perasaan parents die yg freak out takut konsentrasi anak die terganggu coz asyik masyuk bercinta dgn aku....sudahnya....like a slippery slope....one thing leads to another..kaboom a slap to my face...IT JUST NOT WORKING....
People who are in love always prone to make assumption...klu dpt bf yg buaya darat...the girl sentiase percaya yg die boleh ubah laki tu jd setia....or kalau dpt bf junky...the girl akan percaya dgn kuasa cinta...xyah g rehab pun laki tu bley elok...coz laki tu janji xamik dah mende haram tuh...
Pernah terjadi kat kawan aku...yg gile vavi proud dgn bf die...kununnye sudah berhenti merokok...siap pukul canang kepada kami...sedangkan baru je malam sebelumnye sang BF seronok berasap dpn aku sewaktu menjamu selera di kedai makan abe.....time tu dlm kepala otak aku...kalaulah minah ni tau.....
HAHA...benda yg same pernah jd kat aku...kerana tidak mahu ex aku merokok..aku sanggup kuar duit beli calico chocolate stick byk2...letak dlm parcel n post kat die.yep LDR..punye la mamat tu epi...sampai janji sumpah bagai kunun nak brenti dah..n aku pun ase epi gak le..xsmpi sebulan...aku bukak friendster...tergerak ati nk bukak page kwn die...terpampang acara mereka berkepul ramai2 di profile pic..siap ade kotak rokok tulih Pall Mall lak tuh...rokok stock bdk2 u punye..WTF.....
So....in d end...bile wit my another ex, whom is a heavy smoker.....aku dh mls nk amik port dah....suke ti ko nak smoke byk mane....asal jgn dpn aku...dari menipu sorok2 isap rokok belakang aku watpe....
Pasal assuming, aku dh byk kena sound dah dgn bdk laki...coz aku sgt cepat wat assumption n judge b4 i look at the whole picture ..but aku dah dgr ayat yg same berulang2 kali..time nk ngorat.fuh,,,ayat..xbley blah...."I'm not him...", or "don't you dare compare us", or "I won't do what he did".."Not all taurian hv bad luck wit the scorpie"..:it'll be different this time" "i'll make u get over ur paranoia"..bla bla bla...same old same old....but in d end...it just like a sick cycle carousel....mcm gamble...tapi asik dpt nombor xbest....hahahahaha....salahke kalau aku gelak dan merendah2kan pernyataan itu? it so damn cheap...words are cheap....bak kate snow patrol...."those three words...are said too much...they are not enough"....I'm not some f***ing Boyzone fan yg akan percaya shit likes "it's only words...n words are all i have to take your heart away" I need bling bling, concrete home, green paper n lots and lots of love......
So i think it just practical for me to believe in materials that can be seen, touched n owned...rather than hanging on empty words.....coz i'm too broke to settle on just that...or am I just assuming?????