the annoyed and the annoying....

Hahaha..I have an urge to slap somebody's face.... the whole Sulu Intrusion on Sabah irks me in some ways different than it should be...
I'm not an expert when it comes to territorial disputes...hell...those things are heavy....but it just my luck that before this incident happen...my group has to do the presentation and written assignment for regional security in ASEAN...and guess what....my part is territorial disputes...although it is more focused on China VS South East Asia.....but upon reading the whole thing I could manage to gather from different resources....even my group mate has mentioned about how Philippines still hold on to Sabah until now....it just normal for me to start digging...in order to understand the situation better....and regarding this issue...looking back at the whole content of our group presentation...I studied that Malaysia is a training center for Psy-Ops and Psy-War tactical combat for counter terrorism ..so out of curiosity...I start reading more on that stuff....and i realize....OMG...that was beyond heavy...and complicated...like a pair of tangled strings.....you can't just untangle one but all of them...
And it comes to my knowledge that my cousin has a direct involvement in the incident....it's only natural for me to be nosy and ask him things....but he replied by saying...I could not say more about the whole thing..but trust me it's not a drama...I could die tomorrow and it's not a drama...me holding the gun is real...me have to blow people's head is real...so just pray that I will be save back home....
So in order to respect that...I try as hard to shut my mouth (not working i guess)....and thanks to my shallow knowledge of the whole thing...well, although I learn about security...it is not really my forte or passion...i just indulge them to fill my curiosity....well...I'm a pacifist (duhhhhh....) so I believe that conflict is best resolved without bloodbath....but most people find this soft approach as a joke...a sign of weakness...what more can I say....terrorist has human right too (puiiihhhh....) I don't really condone with the way things work regarding this issue....but who cares....there's nothing much I can do but pray for the safety of our warriors and the people there....
And of course....as a human being...I can't help but being biased and easily influenced...well, it's an  open secret that I don't like Anwar Ibrahim (yes..you can repeat that again and again and I won't sue you), seeing his picture with this Missuari Lad....it's only normal to think that he has something to do with the incident....well if he isn't then, why the picture? why the newspaper reports from our neighbor mentioned him?...who feed them with this information....and why? why? why do they meet? but does it matter now?
I might be misled to believe what I want to believe....but it doesn't change a thing...the Sulu standoff is real....and the whole Malaysia feel the heat...
Lets not be political about this incident...I'm done talking about him anyway coz I have a hunch this incident is beyond him....perhaps it a butterfly effect...one thing leads to another big thing....as a common people without the power of knowledge and the perfect tool to utilize it....it's kinda difficult for us to judge...to analyse thing...coz we have to look at thing from different aspects and angles....we cannot accept one thing and discard the rest..well the think tank exist for a reason....so I think it's better to take off my curiosity hat temporarily and observe the whole thing from afar and pray that it will be over soon....
So for those who keep on dramatize the whole issue, who keep finding fault, who knows how to criticize....but fled the scene when shit got serious...I just don't think you have a right to actually say anything at all...I wasn't there so I have no right to comment on things....you were there and fled the scene...and you dare say like you are the victim and it is everybody's fault....it's only natural that I feel sick at you...