Just my luck

While browsing through the newspaper today, I just realized Dr Raymond...My Doc  is in Info Sihat by Mingguan malaysia today...talking about "kembalikan deria bau"...hahaha...never thought such a reputable doc as he is...with all the credentials and everything...will accidentally tear my salur darah....awww....i'm not gonna sue....but i will try to convince him to reduce his fee a lil bit....
My sis talked me about the possibility of suing if I happened to lose my sense of smell...luckily....everything work find.....my mom said i should just consider myself as lucky to be alive....though she also hint to me...that I might have a shorter life span due to my style of living...she will not be shocked if I suddenly croak...drop dead if I keep on living the way I am....
I did make some changes, and i think it's time I'm taking things seriously...with of the pills that I popped into my mouth....I don't think my body can tolerate it much longer...my liver could just shrivel and snap...I wish i could live somewhere where the environment is less toxic....and the source of food is more organic....but now, considering i don't have much time to postpone dealing with my lifestyle problem...i should make the best of everything....
Quitting eating fast food is the challenge...I have to say that at this moment I crave Domino Pizza that it makes me salivate just thinking about it...finding cheap healthy activity to be done alone is a headache...especially when people around you are not so fond of active lifestyle...my younger brother is on a diet and enjoy the healthy lifestyle...unfortunately since he is a boy and his bunch of friends are boys....it's kind of difficult to jump the boat and join them.....
So I'm still looking for any posibble activity that i can do by myself.....that don'r easily get me bored and I am actually having fun doing it...
What I've learnt about these past trip to the hospital.... every time before I go black out...whether during the operation or due to some technical errors in judgement by the doctors....the only one thing I keep thinking..."I haven't done much....I wish could do something I'm good at....I wish I will achieve success doing that...that I'm not merely just living and surviving....but living life to the fullest....I don't want to die today....probably some day...but not today...not before I know what I should do with my life"......but then when i open my eyes...everything has becoming blurr.....sigh...i wish i could do something fruitful about my life before I just drop dead...at least when i died...people will say "owhhh....that's the girl that accomplish something...a life well spent indeed..."